I haven't been posting with any regularity.
I've been grumpy.
I believe there are several reasons for the grumpiness, but just recently put my finger on the primary cause. Unfortunately, there's not a darn thing I can do about it.
It needs to rain.
It needs to rain in a really big way for days and days and days.
It's not going to.
It won't rain unless there's a hurricane that comes into the Gulf, and I can't wish hurricanes on anyone on the Gulf Coast.
I think the thing that finally put me in true funk was the recent release of information that this drought could go on for at least another year. In previous years, there always seemed to be hope that the drought would turn around.
This year, they've (the National Weather Service) has looked into its crystal ball (and into the Pacific ocean) and predicted a return of El Nino/La Nina. I can't remember which is which---I just know whatever is brewing in the Pacific means we won't get rain here next year either.
I can't really explain why the lack of rain is ruffling my feathers. I don't garden (gave that up). I don't have livestock I need to keep alive. I don't have crops that are withering and dying. I just have a tiny bit of backyard grass that I'd like to keep alive if I can. My pasture is long since dead.
If you look at the map above, Texas has the special distinction of being "Exceptional"---in a drought sort of way. I'm so proud of us (rolls eyes).
I think the thing that's getting to me the most is that our well could run dry.
In the past, there always seemed to be hope that the drought would lift during our winter wet season. It didn't rain last winter. It's not supposed to rain next winter either.
We don't have an alternate water source.
There's a sadness to thinking I may turn on a faucet one day and have nothing come out.
There's a sadness in thinking (and watching) our old growth trees begin to show signs of dying.
There's a sadness to seeing brown, dead foliage mile after mile after mile.
There's a sadness to seeing river beds dry or nearly dry.
There's a sadness to knowing that wildlife is suffering and dying because their food sources are gone.
I think I'm letting that sadness get into my daily life.
So, if you know me and I don't seem myself---I don't seem to have an interest in much of anything---that's why.
I feel like I'm withering under the knowledge that this drought may go on for another year.
Update: 247/254 Counties in Texas are now under a burn ban because of this drought. Y'all know how big Texas is!